(((((((((((Kit, GG, Sky, Candy, WW, Caroline, Fuzzy))))))))))))

Thank you all for continuing to believe in me. Your words all mean so much. I feel entirely undeserving of anything, but I still love you for caring about me anyway.

Last night I finally saw the pattern. I feel helpless to provide for my own needs, so I act helpless and people give and give and I take and take and take until they are used up, and then I lash out when they are tired of it and don't want to give me any more. I don't do this intentionally, and I want to give back. Maybe that's what I am trying to do here on PC. I know it is. It's not that I don't give what I can IRL either. I try. But it's deceptive because I take more than I give, and I wear people out hurt them. I don't lie intentionally or consciously stragegize to make myself look better than I am. I'm not misrepresenting what people say intentionally, or changing their words, but I have made public too much of what wasn't mine to make public, and I have given a misleading impression of someone I do respect and care about. And I do it over and over, without knowing that I do that because it's not intentional. I just don't think. I don't think that I have any real power or impact, so it doesn't matter what I say or do. But it does. It's not out of meanness though.

Rap