The last few months have been very difficult. I was in treatment last jan- may until I got run over by a car at 40 mph and underwent numerous surgeries. I promptly relapsed with ED while living and recovering from injuries with parents. It became a very stressful situation. I was finally able to move back to my house but still struggled. A few months later my father was diagnosed with congestive heart failure and passed 9 weeks later. In the interim he blamed me for dying and being so sick. I tried to do a turn around and add a couple pounds and on Jan 1st while at a restataunt I was followed home and sexually assaulted. I feel as though if I had stated really sick I wouldn't have been desirable and now I'm on an incredible nose dive. To make things worse the police treated me like a perpetrator and 3 data later another female was raped in my area. I can't leave my house I can't eat and I can't look at myself in the mirror. The doctors are already threatening me with ng tubes because I've list so much and flat out refuse help. Where do I go?