Your not alone! I see people eating huge plates of food and it blows me away. When I see that I feel like I've eaten vicariously thru them and am afraid of gaining. My dad was overweight and never addressed i. It always upset me that he never fixed it. I can see where your coming from. I personally don't think it's selfish because my fathers weight killed him.his arteries kept getting blocked and suffered congestive heart failure. It's not as though we with our disease aren't without our own issues but I don't know where to find the medium and there has to b one.