I have this belief that if I'm not a good enough person (productive, contributing, doing enough for others, putting my needs last, etc.) then I'm not deserving of food. I believe food is a reward for good people who do good deeds and I don't feel like I do enough good deeds to be rewarded. I don't know how to get this out of my head. It's a struggle. I feel guilty when there are people who have less and do more.