I thought i had control of cutting but lately it's more and more impulsive. I just feel so alone and cutting is the one thing that in a weird way makes everything feel ok. Everything feels so messed up and crazy at least with cutting it's real and a feeling. I need to get control again over this before it ends up worse.
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Things don't happen over time magically, they happen over time with work.
Being normal is overrated. I am young and crazy in a world where normal, decent people construct nuclear weapons.