I completely agree with Open Eyes!! Somehow you need to find yourself help, and that's going to mean talking to your parents. Could you maybe just ask your mom to read this post? I used to have a really hard time talking to my parents about my issues, and so I would write them letters and leave them out in the morning when I went to school for them to find when I wasn't around. It worked. They got me counseling and never actually confronted me about it. (My parents aren't the type to talk about family issues) Keep us posted on what you decide to do, but please do something. Life can be so much better than how you're experiencing it.