Doctor said I should have visible improvement within a week and cleared me to go back to curves a week from today and take it slowly and listen to my body.
He said it is just as important to exercise as to rest because my back will get weak and make me prone to other injury. I guess the other problem is I can do housework, it is a little challenging but I make accomodations (sit in a chair when folding laundry, sit while cooking etc) my problem is the clutter. We are by NO means on hoarder level the problem is really me. I have gotten to the point with the bugs and all that I can't stand a single thing out of place, it actually gives me panic attacks and I have sized down SO much but I can't throw away things that don't belong to me and I don't want to bag on my brother he REALLY does help but it is baby steps (he loads the washer and dryer and forgets to actually put the clothes away = if I don't walk behind him everything will be wrinkly etc. and no stranger or even close friend who has never been in my house would know how to organize, i think I just need to relax this week and keep it from getting worse and hopefully I can get to where I need to be. We dont know if we still have bugs but there are things I should be doing to make sure in case eggs hatch they will die but I can't because my dad NEVER moves. I was told I can't really do anything unless I can get him declared incompetent. I did get him to agree to see a psychiatrist tomorrow, hopefully that will clear some things up. Incidentally (and I have really flipped out over people leaving dishes on the coffee table or clothes strewn around) Do I have a mental illness with clutter like the opposite of a hoarder. I don't have ocd at least the cleaning kind, I just want to live in a hotel basically lol. I can't stand everything not having a home and I need to think long term how to have the house I want when this is all over. Anyway I will keep the suggestions in mind. Once I have my house under control, and we know we are bug free, I want to do some entertaining, even if it is inviting friends over for coffee. My mom never let me have friends over for one reason or another and I have always wanted to cook for people and stuff. Problem is my Dad is ALWAYS on the couch so we are planning to make a room for him upstairs so we at least have our living room back. I think I will be ok but like you said, I have to ask for help, even if it is small things like can someone help me pack up my kitchen, i have never moved before and don't want to break anything etc. That is a task that wouldn't need much thinking on the part of a person helping me as to what goes where, I just need knowhow. I think as I feel better and better and can do more I will be able to get the things bugging me done. I also worry I am just having a good day mentally and the frustration, fear, and alone feeling will raise its ugly head again. Anyway just some stuff I emptied out of my brain. I am afraid i am always repeating myself, thank you all for so much understanding and listening it really really helps!