In one of my most recnt posts a message mentioned fear.... more psecifically "I'm scared", referrining to me.
It has many yrs that I am unable to accept fear.... which is associated with vulnerability... any form of vulnerability is not acceptable to me. It started after my trauma(s) but was intensified after living and being married to a "true" soldier. He has brainwashed me to the point that I cannot cry, I cannot accept vulnerability in any form...etc. I know for a fact, with all of my issues, that I would make a very good soldier, almost was, at the same time I am NOT a soldier....I am a woman...
and I feel very confused.... inside I feel like there are two forces pulling me in opposite directions!
Does anyone understand any of this or am I losing my mind?!!!!!!
Patricia