thank you all for responding......
I will see the Dr. again tuesday. My PTSD is a result of a 20 yr marriage to an extremely abusive man. lots of physical and emotional scars. We divorced 4 yrs ago and he died shortly after. He was the father of all my children.
Anyway, I am grateful to be on the path I am on to get better. Just a little scared and skeptical about finding medication thats going to help me. But at this point Im willing to try just about anything!
Because of my addiction history, they told me I wont get stimulants. I certainly understand the logic of that, but then again Im angry too. Im angry at my addiction history! acceptance has never been easy for me, and it just seems like a cruel irony.
So Im trusting that there will be a safe med for me, and I will continue seeing my therapist