Welcome to the Jungle! I agree with everyone!!!!!! You know that you need help, and to all of us it appears that you would benefit so much from a councelor. Your life is totally worth it, and you can get so much more from life than being miserable. Keep asking for help, someone will listen!!!!! I'm sorry your friends didn't come through like you wanted. They are probably scared because they don't know what to do and they can't imagine having to deal with something like this. Also, I'm sorry that you didn't get the help you needed when you started asking. Keep trying because life can be so much better.