I even make a list of my achievements and read it almost everyday. The list is longer then most people's around my age. I haved worked so hard and have achieved tons of things that others may envy of, just to prove to my own self that I'm capable. And yet deep inside me is still this feeling of lack of confidence, especially the irrational doubt that I one day will lose all the things I have achieved, my skills I have gained. It makes me work restlessly and I don't even have a minute of enjoyment

I'm just so afraid of setbacks and failures although I know they are just a normal part of growing up and progressing.

All those thoughts literally toture me when I'm alone, and although I know they are irrational, I cannot get rid of them. They severely reduced my self confidence.