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Originally Posted by kdclement
I'm so stressed and I hope I can make myself clear enough because this problem is causing my bipolar to really swing and I need some help, seriously. I tried to cut myself over it last week b/c I was at my wits end. I'm not sure how to fix any of it or if I can.
I feel like I can barely function and I want to cry all the time. I'm easily irritated at people that have nothing to do with it and I just want to crawl in a hole. How do I make it better? Is it possible? My heart is breaking  |
I read your story with compassion. Have you had the chance to discuss with her the behavioral issues you were helping her with at the time, and that, as you write, 'she didn't want to see you.' I don't know how to make it better, except I'm going through something of a power trip with my 33 yr. old at the time, and she refuses to see me before she moves to CA. I do know it is not healthy for anyone to take on guilt from anything anyone else says, if we believe we've done the right thing, and it sounds as if you certainly did all you could at the time. I
Have you discussed your feelings with your T? I do hope you work through this, even counselling with your daughter, and perhaps in the future she will understand the situation and take responsibility for her own actions in your decision. It doesn't seem fair that you should suffer from these emotions.
I've learned not to be manipulated by my children, for they will surely try; if they cannot honor me, I am not their judge, but they will be judged. My job is to keep on loving them. My older child won't even see me over an issue; she uses it to hurt me and drive the knife deeper. I have to forgive; what else can I do?