You posted this paragraph on Facebook?

You don't want people to tell you that everything will be OK. I get that. I've been at that place too, where I just wanted to vent and didn't want to hear comforting words that sounded so phony and false at the time. But I will tell you this: Until you decide that you truly want to be out of this pit of despair, then you'll likely be in this pit for a while. I hope that you do find that desire to at least try climbing out of this hole, one small step at a time.

Also, do you have a therapist who knows how you're feeling? Would it be possible to change up your meds, or increase the dosage of a med you're currently on?