Things will get better for you. I know it. You just need to take one day at a time, and realize that you ARE worthy of life. Yeah, you don't feel like anyone is there for you, but you came to this site for a reason. Let out your feelings. Say what you need to say. If you have to, write out your feelings in a journal or something. Another thing, i think you should write a note to your mom. You need help. I'm sure she doesn't want to see you hurting as much as you are, but she needs to know everything. Tell her. I'm sure you'll feel a lot better. I hope things get better for you. Stay strong. <3