Thanks again, your e-mails made me smile :-)

I'm wondering what holds me back really.... It may sound crazy, but I'm actually amazed to observe him. I guess I just wait for the right time, and also, I want to figure whether it is just me expecting too much... We talked a lot about childhood things, we both believe that many issues in one's life arise from there. Since my parents passed away when I was 9, (my grandparents raised me up), I always felt the lack of love - as a child needs it. I guess my expectations somewhat come from that feeling, the need for nurturing. So, I wondered: if I can accept that I grew up without the sufficient amount of love, care, and attention, should I accept the same thing in my relationship? Is it something that I have to work on? Not to expect the nurturing from others, but try to find it within? This is a big one for me, because I also don't want to be or sound like I'm needy or greedy. Why can I not accept that a relationship is not about receiving lots of care and attention, or little treats, etc... He told me that I have a pattern of being spoilt by my ex. He, of course, thinks that it is an issue that I will have to work on. Once again, probably because he has no intention to spoil me...

I really don't know anymore how a normal relationship supposed to be... And I also don't know how can one achieve self-nurturing. It is difficult for me to make myself a priority, except when I am single. In a relationship I'm constantly worried about making my man happy and content, but this should happen without any expectations, right? Karma-yoga....

ANy thoughts on this? Thanks!!