I've been looking at this thread for awhile now...I think I can finally make up a list. Hmm...

Hate:

1. Depression/the kind of person depression has turned me into.
2. My shyness and lack of anything resembling social skills.
3. My sexual orientation.
4. My past (and current) problems with SI.
5. I procrastinate all the time, and have concentration issues on top of it. I convince myself this means I'm lazy.
6. I lie to everyone I know (IRL) on a daily basis.
7. I can't get myself to tell my friends I love them more than anything.
8. My appearance, most of the time anyway.
9. My extreme fear of needles.
10. I don't let myself get close to people.
11. It's nearly impossible for me to express how I feel.
12. I let her disappear...
13. I don't care anymore.
14. I never defend myself or stand up for myself.
15. Everything.
16. I hide how I feel, even if I don't need to.
17. Who I am, compared to who I could be.
......oh, it was only 10 things? oops.

Like:

1. I will do ANYTHING for people I care about. I'll defend them more than I defend myself. I'll defend them more than they defend themselves. I'm like an overprotective guard dog or something. Yeah, don't **** with Nemo's friends.
2. My ability to love and experience music on a level most people don't seem to understand.
3. My sense of humor.
4. ***Trigger warning*** At the age of 12 I strongly believed I would kill myself by the age of 18. I didn't think I'd be in college, definitely didn't think I would be teaching martial arts. Here I am.
5. I've been told I'm very mature for my age.
6. An entire karate school loves me. That must mean something, right?...