MLID, you're 13, right? You should really talk to your parents about your difficulties. If you have to send to send them an email instead, that's fine. It's funny but at 41 yrs old, my best communication with my father is through email; it just seems that for him at least, it's the easiest way for him to communicate. So, use whatever tools you have to make your folks understand what you're going through. 13 is a difficult time for everyone, hang in there. But if you really can't talk to them, find a teacher or a counselor and start there. Let them figure out where you are before you start worrying too much. If you are having suicidal thoughts, of course, you need to find help soon with that but remember, there's an awful lot that goes on in our heads that falls within the definition of "normal" so don't ever assume the worst (suicidal thoughts are not normal). And also don't assume that you need medication. Leave that also to the experts.

It's good that you're here and reading posts but remember that we're obviously all of us at very different stages in our lives and one size certainly does not fit all. Be patient with yourself, okay? And good luck with the folks.