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Thank you, it seemed to me like depersonalization as well, just different than the depersonalization I've felt before. Before I would just completely seperate, I would leave my body and always would be watching from across the room or behind my head. Couldn't hear anything, only see things. Now it's kind of morphed into something different but I must say it's much less scary this way than when I actually have a OBE. I;ve had depersonalization issues as long as I can remember, some doctors say it's due to migraines but most doctors are more concerned with the dissociation than the depersonalization. The blackouts are less now which is good, perhaps that will free up a little time to work on the depersonalization...
I'm asking so many questions because these things, in one way or another I've been experiencing them my whole life. Only lately have I been realizing maybe they aren't the way "normal" minds work. I'm realizing maybe it isn't normal to see things that aren't real, to hear loud voices comment in your head (and out of your head as well) to have blackouts, to be in such a state that I have no control, these are not normal feelings and it's taken me a long time to realize it so I'm just trying to find out, if everything is so wacked out with me, what is normal and is there even a hint of normal in me? In anyone for that matter?
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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