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Thanks Gretta! It's funny you mention the hypoglycemic as a possible cause, some others have mentioned it before. It was ruled out though. My body does mimmic those symptoms often however. But it does a lot of symptoms, I think it's a lot in relation to my anxiety and phobias, either that or the phantom pain/body memories type thing. It's like I'm a sponge and for some reason I absorb all these symptoms that come in contact with me, but never can find out why.
I've been diagnosed with back problems, irregular heart beat, chronic kidney infections, but no one can figure out why I keep getting kidney infections, can never figure out why I get so much chest pain, so much pain in my rib cage (af if I were kicked in the ribs) this that and the other. I get so many things wrong with me, I don't know if it's all in my head or something physical but the doctors have been trying to figure physical problems out for about 15 years now, I think it's time to try the psych field. I have been to many t's though.
With the blackouts and such it was also suggested I may be epileptic (since I did have one seizure) it was also suggested I was anemic, migraines, angina, numerous things have been mentioned and tested, but they never figure it out.
My brothers used to say that I changed into someone else, they called her "Becky" but in all honesty I couldn't tell you. They are the only ones that have ever said a name with when I blackout. Apparently I had a pretty snippy one in charge in my teen years, I don't swear but apparenly I would cuss my brothers or my mom out frequently. All I recall of the events are the aftermath really. I remember being in the hall walking one day, next thing I know I hear my mom say "What did you say to me?!?!" Apparenly I had told her to f off or something. I didn't though. That was a pretty regular at my home. Not always the anger but a lot of "What did you say?" and me being confused "Nothing?" in response. Still happens now. I was dx'd DID/MPD w/e you wanna call it but it's still not proven to me so I accept any other reasonable explination, but DID still does make the most sense, but denial goes hand in hand with it so yeah, I'm just contradicting myself over and over...
Oh gosh I am talking way too much. I'm stopping here, not important what I have to say anyway....
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