Thanks. But life still sucks. The counsellor I have been seeing (funded through the family courts primarily for relationship counselling was doing individual therapy for me when ex pulled out) has had her application for more sessions denied, which means I no longer get to see her. She is the 1st counsellor/therapist I have really been able to trust somewhat and start to open up to. Apparently the waiting list for therapy through community mental health team is very long at the mo, and going privately is not even an option. I also have to see my pdoc on Monday. I am dreading this...I haven't seen her since last year I think (or was it Feb- I can't remember!!) and so much has gone on since then, for t he worse. I am dreading what she is going to say about this whole situation, and what she is going to do- I have this underlying fear that she will want me admitted into hospital to sort things out. I don't know if this is rational or not, but I am so scared she might say that. But anyway, that last cut has scared me into not doing any more at the mo- I am suffering enough now from it, considering it didn't hurt doing it. The worst part are the flashbacks of WHEN I was doing it. I don't remember before or after, but every time my mind starts to think about my leg or that episode the flashbacks are awful... Hey- thanks everyone for your support