Honestly? There's no 1 logical reason. I can justify it all I want but I was in the midst of a depressive mini-sode, and I thought to hell with it all. Like what's the point of pumping my body full of toxins if there's no real pay-off? Figured I'd come this far alone (un-dxd for 10yrs) might as well continue. Plus meds made me eerily calm under circumstances I should be having a *****fit. Me NO LIKEY! Quit T coz I believe my past should stay in the past, don't scratch off my scabs ya know?
Well, not sure if any of that's making any sense at all,but it is what it is... Thanks for caring enough to ask, sweet of you.