My mom thinks she's come up with this brilliant idea, by getting family or friends together and " just happening to be out and about", she decides that she's hungary and we just "must" go get food! I'm so frustrated I try and just sit there or leave when the waitress comes but next thing I know they bring out a try and pop! There's something for me! UGH I don't know how to get it through her head to let me deal with my stress and trauma my way and right now I'm just not ready for working with my team or food! I nned to go through all that just happened and despite that everyone thinks my thoughts that getting attacked wont happen again if I drop all the wt I am convinced it's true and just want to have my feelings! I dint want want to b tricked or bribed or hoodwinked. I want to feel validated and safe and for me the best way is to lose. I feel dirty and by not eating I feel like I'm cleansing my soul!