I go to the doc in 2 hours and am feeling super anxious about it. I guess I'll tell him what I've been up to, but might frame it in a way that would make sense to him.I think I am justified in trying to get off the Depakote. I think he'll want me to switch to Latuda. He has samples, but it will cost me $700.00 a month because it isn't on my insurance formulary. I don't see any reason to start if I can't pay for it.

I've been on almost every drug except for the older antipsychotics and older mood stabilizers because of the weight gain factor/too sedating or other weird side effects and I am out of options. Has anyone else had this problem? What to do when you have to succumb to the inevitable evil of drugs and the power the doc. I think I'm going to lose it when we meet so that will only make him push more drugs on me.

I think I'll put my headphones on loud while I wait and try to breathe so I can pull off a calm presence. Maybe I'll get lucky and he will be receptive of my plan.

Thanks for all your support and suggestions.