I've been seeing that getting tossed around a lot. Either people are suspicious of someone else, or people are afraid they're being put in the guilty seat.

I'm slowly getting a grip over what happened. I wasn't the only one hurt and I know everyone is going to take different amounts of time to feel safe again. I don't feel safe, but I'm not going to let that stop me from posting.

But I would like to ask people to stop speculating about who else might have been involved. My instincts, as undeveloped as they may or may not be, tell me this was done by one member and one member only. I know we all have certain members we're not too fond of and there most likely was some behind the scenes snickering and griping about me. I'd have to be awfully naive to think otherwise. But from what I've been told personally is that this person didn't have an accomplice in here, and I have to believe that. I have to have faith in that in order to get over this.

Please stop the speculation. It's only making things more uncomfortable. Right now I don't know who's being nice to be nice and who's being nice out of guilt. Either way, I don't want to know. I need the nice feelings right now, no matter why they're coming my way.