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I have gone through this with my first two dogs. My 13 year old was very sick and beyond human aid, and my 10 year old went the same way. Both times I got to be with them when they were put to sleep. I still cry and miss them, but I remember more and more the joy and laughter we shared.
Reading your shares about the loss of your dog helps me to know that it is a grieving process. It's not over all at once. Dogs are so special and give such unconditional love. I have so much to learn from them.
Sorry I am so late posting I just found this section.