I tend to most often have like a barrier up, I guess it's my way of protecting myself, e.g my emotional well being. I tend to be able to manage my feelngs ,emotions a lot better. I don't tend to allow so much to bother me, But when i'm like this i don't find it easy to display emotions
like affection, It's like i'm living in my own little world, i tend to find it eaiser to detatch and distance myself from people and situations. I know it is not a good way to be, but when i let my guard or barrier down and start displaying positive emotions and feelings , laughter etc , i find its not long before i start to feel negative about life in general.