Dear Bmee2, So sorry you have been depressed lately. You are not alone in feeling that you don't know how to live & don't have a plan for the future & I'm 54 yrs old...

You are so right about, if you don't ask you'll never know.
I think & I emphasize, I think the way you get a hug badge is if you give someone a hug. You pick a post where you think that person really needs a hug & click on the little hug square at bottom right hand side of that persons post. So if I'm right... try it a couple times & see if a hug badge shows up for you.

Hopefully you see a T that can help you sort out some direction. I'm still working on it...

Sending hope & good thoughts your way.