I've posted this before but its been weeks and I cant shake this dream...

I dreamt I was in this parking lot, trying to get somewhere (i didn't have my car) my ex was there (he was pretty abusive in real life) I had orange and red paint all over the thighs of my work jeans. I felt threatened, like he was going to harm me bad I think because I went to his car and found a gun in a hidden compartment of his trunk, pointed it at him and i said "I swear to god matt i'm going to kill you this time" but I was really upset and shaking, could barely hold the gun. I got sucked back in to that stupid relationship somehow ended up hugging him and crying. Then he left, I was now running ( on a crowded beach, the sun was too hot, too bright) looking for shade, the smell of coconut tanning oil everywhere, I got sick to my stomach but kept going, I was trying to catch up/get to someone(not sure who). I was being chased by someone(s). (possibly my ex and his friends?) I ended up in some shower tub trying desperately to get the paint off my jeans before my dad noticed and it wasn't coming out. Then this blue stuff started leaking from the walls and i kept trying to wash it off but it kept coming.

I'm usually a vivid dreamer but this one felt too real and I can't seem to shake it, its been weeks...

thanks guys