i woke up a bunch lastnight thinking about things (No surprise)today i am just drained .i kind of have really lost a lot of what my T had said.i know i can read what i wrote her and am going to but she said so much more that i just cant remember or make any sence out of.it is like it is broken words in my head.does this happen to anyone else.things just get mixed up.one thing i do still have is the feeling i got from the session and that is ok.these are some of the feelings i think
shame,terror,sick,angry,and a feeling of things being ok with my T .not so alone.that maybe she does care and has a plan and and it isn't malisious intentions.today i feel a little more grounded then i have felt in weeks.like i will be able to survive her being gone again for another 14 days.