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Originally Posted by granite1
i hope so because i can guarente i will so need reminding.this happens a lot with me . at this point i havn't turned anything bad.she really hasn't done anything i can turn bad .but i am loosing what she said it is hard to remember and to seperate it all out from the mess that is in my head.i wish i could hold on longer then i do but it is hard.yesterday i was so tired that i wasnt able to wwrite as soon as i was home.i slept so lost a lot of understanding of what was said
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Aren't you glad you wrote down what you did remember in this post?
I'm learning from you granite! Maybe it would be helpful if I did the same? It's just so hard for me to say my things because I just don't think anyone would really care, and, I think acknowledging my stuff is hard for me t do as well.
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Originally Posted by granite1
thanks rain  i dont think i could have done it if she hadnt just broke it down line by line .that really did help.it didn't seem so overwelming for a while.i never thought to look at it by one line at a time.she really made me feel ok if i could just read that one line and worry about the next if the time came.i do feel good about it
BTW i am still cleaning popcorn out of my pockets.pizza and soda the next time |
Soda can be very messy ..... and sticky granite.......... how about something like a juice box? that way, if we spill our drinks from the partying we're doing because you're doing so awesome, just little drops will escape instead of a whole can of soda being spilled?
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Originally Posted by granite1
i woke up a bunch lastnight thinking about things (No surprise)today i am just drained .i kind of have really lost a lot of what my T had said.i know i can read what i wrote her and am going to but she said so much more that i just cant remember or make any sence out of.it is like it is broken words in my head.does this happen to anyone else.things just get mixed up.one thing i do still have is the feeling i got from the session and that is ok.these are some of the feelings i think
shame,terror,sick,angry,and a feeling of things being ok with my T .not so alone.that maybe she does care and has a plan and and it isn't malisious intentions.today i feel a little more grounded then i have felt in weeks.like i will be able to survive her being gone again for another 14 days.
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Good! Do whatever you can to hold onto that feeling! If you can keep that feeling with you, you'll be good to go- yes?? Often, for me, it is the feeling I hold onto and not so much the words (although, I'm not sure T would say that).
Your T definetly cares granite.