Good for you! That is great! I will recognize your achievements, and you need to too! Some of the greatest inventions came about because of mistakes. Keep up the good work and don't be so hard on yourself. I was afraid of failure too, and now wish I had not been, I could have done so much more with my life if I had not worried about it now I am in my fifties and it is to late! Enjoy and be happy with what you have accomplished you deserve it!