Hello everyone! I am having soooo much anxiety. I am a recovering addict and I've been clean for about 10 months. I went to rehab a few months after my husband went to jail. I have 4 children so I needed someone to care for them while I was in rehab. I asked my inlaws and they agreed to watch them while I was away. I did make them aware that it would be 4 to 5 weeks and they were fine with it. Well 2 weeks into rehab I called my mother inlaw to ask her if she could bring my kids to visit me. Her exact answer was, "No I'm not sitting there for an hour and by the way I got custody of your children today". My heart sunk and I couldn't even breath. It turns out that my husband signed his rights over to his parents and helped them get custody of "OUR" children! I was never served with papers telling me that my inlaws were going for custody, not even a phone call! I can't understand why they chose that time to get custody. Why didn't they take me and my husband to court while I was active in my addiction. They chose to do it when I finally made one of the most difficult decisions in my life, which was to leave my children ( which was the most difficult thing about going away ) and go get help. I could go on and on so anyway now at the present time I've been clean for almost 10 months and I want my children back. After I got out of rehab I had no job, no money, and no place to live. So I made the right choice for my children and let them stay with my inlaws. They had food to eat, clothes on thier back, and a roof over thier head. Things that I couldn't provide for them at the time. I went to welfare and was placed in a hotel and got financial help. Through these 10 months I have never missed any of thier birthdays and parties at school. I also always visited with them on the weekends. Now that I can provide for them and they have a safe place to live my inlaws are, all of a sudden, making it very hard for me to see them.They are alienating my children from me. If one of them gets into trouble they are not allowed to see me. So my children are getting punished from thier own mother which is bull$#!^! They are damaging my children emotionally and thier own father helped. I feel like I have absolutely no control. I am taking my inlaws to court to gain custody back but in the meantime my inlaws are hurting them emotionally. They haven't been served yet but I think they have a feeling they will be soon. That's why I think my inlaws won't let me see them. So this is what's really bothering me right now. Does anyone have any advice or positive feedback. Especially if you've been through the same thing. Please respond asap!