I have been having a hard time totally accepting my bipolar. For many years I just beleived I was crazy, then doctors kept treating me for depression. about a year ago i finally hooked up with this really great psychiatrist who diagnosed me bipolar and we did the rounds of meds. i am pretty stable now - i take a combination of lexapro, lamictal, lithium and serequel. so many meds make me feel like an outcast to society but the moods swings did too. I have recently been confronted with some of my past poor choices in a very public forum. i am struggling to get through it and find that i can't bring myself to be totally honest with even my closest friends. i really need a support group that i can be totally honest with and not feel judged. i've done some bad things that are catching up to me and it is even hard to face myself. i hope that i can begin to feel trust here so i can get help during this time.