for myself recovering from alcohol abuse i found i first needed to have the desire to stop drinking. i had tried to stop before but always picked it back up. i liked the feelings it gave me. what i learned later was i was self medicating and thought by drinking it helped me deal with life stuff and feelings.
it sounds that you already realize how much better you felt when you stopped using weed. hold onto that thought. the weed keeps calling you back tho. you can break that cause and effect. going to NA or AA may help you too. you'll get great support from others that can relate to how you feel.
you probably know these synptoms below of cannabis use. just thought i'd post it here anyway.
we're here for you and care. 
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Information on the Dangers and Effects of Heavy Cannabis Use
Studies have linked heavy Cannabis / Marijuana use to anxiety and mental health disorders such as paranoia, depression, insomnia, schizophrenia and even amotivational syndrome which relates to a lack of ambition or drive. http://www.drug-aware.com/cannabis-i...ms-effects.htm
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