I see the p-doc next on Feb 22nd. I started my 60mg on Sunday. I know, I know, it's only Tuesday and these things take time. If the meds don't work, I have to see another lady that I absolutely cannot stand or simply wait. The clinic is at school and they get annoyed when I call (which is about once a month). They tell me to go to the hospital if I am bad or wait. My p-doc herself is actually pretty nice; but everyone else seems like they don't like working with mental patients, lol. I'll check for support groups and disability services. I've never used disability services, but it might be time to consider it.

It's just so hard to adjust meds and be a PhD student. I don't see a psychologist, only a p-doc. I am not sure if there are any support groups for grad students. It's only the second week; I shouldn't feel like this.

I got up and found out the water was shut off. I saw some vans near pipe lines, so hopefully they fix it soon. If not, I might have to borrow a shower from a friend. I did go to the store to get water and a few other things. It felt like it took forever.

I'll work on my lecture before I read. I can fumble my way through my class tomorrow if called on, but I want to make sure my lecture makes sense. Luckily, one of my classes is on-line and I am caught up on those readings. I texted a friend a told her how I felt. A few people in the PhD program are aware I am Bipolar. I don't really hide it and don't feel like I need to be ashamed of my condition. They know I am on and off meds all the time and get sick from the meds. One day last semester, one of my fellow PhD students lectured for me because I was dry heaving from the meds. I owe him big time.

Thanks, both, for your support.