Thanks. My answers are different to yours and seem more fetish-like:

- Was it the clothes? (just bras mainly, I have to keep a bra in the house, some curiosity in some other clothes too like sexy tops thou I don't like to feel too exposed)
- Was it the sexual gratification? (yes, that's a big part of it)
- Was it looking pretty? (If I fantasise about being female, yes I would have to look pretty, if I were old/fat or otherwise unattractive it wouldn't be worth it, I only think about a girl who *I* think is pretty)
- Was it wanting to change my body? (Not so sure, I do dislike some aspects of my body, like weight, complexion etc, breasts would be fun, but I want to keep my penis, this question is too confusing because there's a lot of aspects to it)
- Was it having a female identity? (I don't think so, I feel slightly feminine sometimes, but female not really but could I still be in denial?)

I'm still a bit anxious thou. I keep seeking reassurance. Yes I know it sounds like I'm NOT transsexual, and I'm happy about being male, and these answers are as honest as I can be, but I'm anxious. What does denial feal like? How would I know? I still want to find out from a doc if it's posable for hypochondriacs like me to become preoccupied with mental/sexual things not just physical things? I've always worried about physical things in the past. Are there any docs on the forum who can comment on that?