You definitely sound like your flirting with danger. It's never good to make it a competition beuause someone is always going to get hurt. Your friend sounds like she needs people reaching pit to her like you do kudos for getting a counselor involved. I've battled this disease for 31 years and it's consumed me my thought my choices and I have nit had the engaging progressive life that I thought I would. You sound impressionable and that with the right team the could get you on a path so you are happy with you and Still able to reach healthy goals. Peace and good will!