Samuel,

You're a brave young man for bringing this up here. And as a parent I'm greatly concerned for your safety.

Right now you're not in a safe position. If your father has fled as you believe, it could be considered abandonment depending upon where you live. Even if he does come back he may hurt you for revealing his drug use.

If you can, please contact a guidance counselor at school or call the authorities. They can help you get to a place where you'll be safe. They can also assist in getting you therapy to help with your emotional issues. Don't worry; a lot of therapists go through therapy themselves to keep themselves balanced.

Do you have other relatives, or can your friend's parents help you out until then? I'm sure you can take care of yourself for the time being but you could use a lot of real life support.

Keep coming back and keep posting if you can. I care about what happens to you.