Here I am again, posting again. With no real reason behind it. Just doing it. I have continued to cut...and cut.. Mom still in the hospital, will be there for the rest of the week, and then to a rehab place (again w/ the not talking about that.) Lets see, my boss chewed me out for [censored] that was stupid. I have midterms coming up..and ugh..stress galore! I'm switching therapists...brand spanking new one in like 2 weeks. Yeah for me...not. Man, I hate all this [censored]. i am just so annoyed...and i don't know what to do with anything. I just wanna keep cutting, to see if I can feel anything, but still I don't feel anything...like blood will build up and i can't feel it...i see it..but i can't feel it. why can't i feel? why am i so numb?

ok, i'm gonna go...sorry for bothering...

[b] Wake me up inside...I can't wake up...Save me...Save me from the nothing I've become!!![b]