I'm 25, and I notice my blood pressure goes up in public. When im with my girlfriend, im a different person, sad and meloncholy almost but its not depression because i love being that way. In public I can feel my blood pressure rise, I hate talking in front of the class. I was taking xanax for about a month, and I noticed in school I would actually talk and question the teacher without anxiety, although i bet my speech was a little bit slurred. It's so easy to get caught up with this restless feeling. It's really when im by myself in a social setting that anxiety hits the hardest. When im with friends or people I like to be with, that meloncholy part of me sedates me a lot of the time. I was an only child with divorced parents growing up and spent a lot of time alone.... it makes me wonder if it's just all in my head. I'd love to feel "sad and meloncholy" almost all the time.

No im not a people person, but i am altruistic nonetheless.

Thank you