Hi Tanman,
You sound like you'd be a poet with your saying you like feeling sad and meloncholy.
You're shy. I think that's more of a social thing then an anxiety thing. I don't know. To me, anxiety disorder is when you suddenly swear you're having a heart attack out of nowhere-because you can't breathe, your chest is constricted, your heart is pumping a little faster and sometimes it's palpatating and you feel dizzy.
It's horrible. If you had an anxiety disorder, I don't think you'd have any doubt in your mind. Those attacks are horrible and very scarey.
Yeah, I think you've got a little bit of a social phobia going on but I don't think it's the same as an anxiety disorder.
Hope that helps.