thanks for all the suport and smiles from all of you .again i dont know what i would do with out you all. yesterday was the most calm i have been in a month.today already seems to be turning into the same thing.my body and heart are just soaking up the quietness in my life right now and in my head.god i hope it stays this way for a bit.i know now i dont see my T for another 13 days and i miss her but it isn't this angry miserable i hate her kind of desperation but a kind of i know it will be ok and ill see you then kind of miss you.i know you will be there if i need you .for some reason knowing this in my heart makes it easier not to see her.going to spend the day in my craft room again licking my wounds from the last month and continue recovering.FEELING GOOD