Hi, I'm Carol and new here. Let me start by saying that quite a lot has happened in the past few months. I was married for 15 years. My husband has suddenly passed away recently. I am just dealing with admitting to myself and telling the truth about how bad my marriage was. MY family doesnt understand why I stayed with him. He treated me badly and verbally abused me constantly. he had not touched me intimately in 2 years. I am catholic and do not believe in divorce. I have only told a few select people about this. (counseller and best friend)
2nd issue. I thought I was ready to move on with my life, so I joined a catholic dating site. I met a nice man, and because my husband had not touched me in so long, my body wants to be intimate. He holds me and kissed me, but we have not been intimate yet. I am confused as to whether I want sex with him because of the time it has been since I have been touched, or because he is good to me, and I really care for him? He is willing to be patient with me, so it is not really a rush, although I feel like I've been holding back on him.