I like to feel meloncholy alot of the time. My girlfriend tells me i'm mean to her, but I know she likes it. I just let her know im not a pushover when a lot of other guys would fold. I just stare at her with "unblinking" eyes and she says it's spooky, like I can read her mind and she can't read mine.

I try to keep it under control alot of the time, my ruthlessness. But sometimes ruthlessness is beneficial. I would do almost anything to win if I knew I wouldn't get in trouble. You know who I feel like if I let my guard down, like tony soprano, or his uncle jr.

It doesn't matter, I'm still a good person. I'm altruistic, yet feel like if you cross my path I would love to see you burn. This sounds so negative and im sorry, im just trying to provide an example. But yeah, I can be cold and ruthless. It feels good. My dad who was in the marine corp told me I have the personality to be a drill instructor, it's a very tough job but I think he is right.

I would just like some psychological insight if anybody has any, I have no qualms with this personality.