Twisted_soul, don't do this to yourself. Look at it this way-think of any 12 year old you know and put her in that very same position, do you believe for a second that she asked, wanted or deserved it? Do you believe for a second that she was in the wrong and went along because she needed the attention?
I really don't think you would subscribe to that for any other 12 year old so why would you buy into it for your being 12?
You are sinking into your thoughts and they're misleading you. (((((((((Twisted)))))))))) Don't blame yourself.