... I'm SO upset with how it went! I need a do over - I know exactly how it should have gone and what I should have said, but it's no good now! :'(

I'm honestly BEYOND annoyed with myself, and I already have an overflowing tank of self hate... I don't... I don't know what to do with it all, I really don't! I'm so dangerous. I'm probably having a huge overreaction, but it's a bad time of year, I'm so sensitive and in a precarious state already, and I haven't self medicated enough to shut my feelings off today.

I want to explain, but words just aren't coming right now. I'm really sorry. I'll try in a while.. it just.. bleurgh. I go to pieces, like this!