I have been wondering this a lot lately, so I can totally relate. I tell my T everything I am feeling and thinking... in regards to whatever is on my mind. I don't hold back at all. Even if its a question about something he said or his intentions of things he said. I often read to much into things. I am thinking its a self defense kind of thing to want to pull back. I have been feeling like "pulling back" with no real reason. For me it's just scary to be this open and honest continuously with someone.