I've been struggling for years with irregular sleep patterns. I have trouble going to sleep because of various triggers, the act of going to sleep itself and fear of the return of the night terrors that plagued me throughout my early 20s.

Since I started doing the work to identify my alters, I've realized that an even bigger part of it is that most of them are teens and children. We don't want to go to bed and we're all grown up so no one can make us, including me. Between the anxiety and childish stubbornness, I often stay awake until 4 or 5 in the morning and sleep well into late morning/early afternoon.

This week, because one of us has been setting up early morning 'appointments', (fancies himself a playboy, it gets really old...) which thankfully haven't been panning out, (I'm starting to wonder if I'm making these 'appointments' via email with another alter I don't know about...? Idk...) I've been waking up early, which has been slowly driving bedtime back to a more reasonable hour (last night it was 2:30, still late but it's progress) but as I've been increasingly more tired due to the amount of sleep I've been missing, (I usually get 8 or 9 hours,) I've noticed I've been dissociating more, switching more quickly and apparently blacking out for short periods, which usually doesn't happen much at all.

For the most part, as far as I know, I've been mostly coconscious for years but I found out yesterday I sent some emails I didn't know about. I frequently think I've emailed people only to later find out I hadn't but now that I'm thinking about, I remember a friend of mine telling me a few years back that he had seen me doing some things that were very out of character, that I have no memory of and he insists he saw me doing it, so maybe I've been blacking out all this time without even knowing.

Mostly, I'm just confused and hoping I can keep my sleep routine on a good track and get enough sleep soon so that this subsides. Has anyone else had experiences similar to any of this? Any advice or sharing would be very much appreciated. I really like and respect everyone on this forum. You're awesome people.