Well.

I informed the school and they more or less said they couldn't help me. They told me they contacted CPS and they wouldn't do anything. As it stands, I have to go back to my house, back to my father, and back to things being the way they where, it seems.

Needless to say, this was a mssive blow to me. I am now certain that I get to watch my father waste away under the influrences of his vices and my mental health goes untreated, the school pretty much saying to me that "That's in the home" And "If he want's to do that, that's his choice." Never before in my life have I felt more hopeless or more afraid. I have no idea what to do now, and I don't want to call the police because he might go to prison.

I wish my father would get help, but it looks like he's denying any of the drugs he does, and is persistant to watch his life waste away under the influence of drugs and alcohol.

I'm really lost now.

I'm going back this afternoon, having the school, and my father, guilt me into it by saying, respectively, "He's the only father you've got." and "Don't you think you've been enough of a nuisance?" I am only saying this because I need help. Both mine and his mental states are destroyed, and I have no idea what to do. If I have to wait until I'm old enough to leave, I suppose I can, but frankly, I'm not looking foward to the next two hellish years of my life with him that I have left.

Thank you~
Samuel Cross-meredith