Thank you for your response. It is nice to know that I'm heard and that there are people out there that care. I don't know if your a recovering addict, but it's good to hear that a total stranger is proud of the decisions that I've made in the past year. Before that all my decisions were bad ones. I didn't realize this at that time but I did know that I had to get help for my addiction. Now that I am clean I realize all the bad decisions I've made whether it had to do with my children or how I got my next fix. I also thank you soooo much on your congrats to me for being clean. I don't hear that very often, even from the people that are supposed to love me. So thanks again. Reading that really made my day a whole lot better ( or I should say evening because it's almost 5:30 pm where I live ).